I had no real concept of how completely stressed I'd become over these past few months. Work mounted higher and faster than my ability to complete it. Frustrations sparked but were quickly silenced, buried, half-smouldering, waiting for an opportunity to flare into life once again.
Relationships with family and friends, co-workers, all became strained, left as they were without the nurturing care needed to sustain them. And here I sat, in the midst of it, numbed into inaction, stifled for fear of letting loose that flood of emotions I had so carefully packed away each time some ugly stress had reared its nasty head.
Blood pressure climbed skyward, as did cholesterol and weight, each vying for the other's attention as if seemingly striving to outdistance the other in mocking protest to my inaction.
Where will it all end, I asked myself? Where?
"With my own demise." came the quiet and steady response.
"My own demise? But why?! I was only trying to do my best, I argued with the voice. Why was I being punished? Wasn't I doing the right thing? Wasn't I working hard enough? Long enough? Wasn't it all about getting the job done? Helping everyone as much as I could?" I continued to whine. The answer came quietly again.
"No. That is not what it is all about. But you haven't realized that yet, have you? You've been so busy "doing" that you've lost sight of the real reason - the truth - of life."
"And what is that?" I asked petulantly, disgusted with myself, yet refusing to concede to the inner truths I knew to be my own.
"L O V E" the voice answered calmly.
The word echoed in my brain.
"Love is the answer. The only answer." the voice continued.
I sat and absorbed the word, letter by letter, soaking in it's strength, it's peace, it's very fiber.
L O V E
I closed my eyes as the letters rolled softly from my heart, through my mouth, out into the world, carried on the whisper of an angel's wings as they floated around my head.
L O V E
It enveloped me, wrapping itself loosely round my face, my soul, quieting my anxious thoughts and fears. Soothing the ache of doubt, erasing all uncertainty. Leaving in its stead the contented sign of acceptance. Of being.
L O V E
L I F E L I V E L O V E
Life's greatest mystery.....Love.
LIVE the LIFE you LOVE!
For His Most Holy Sake I Pray, Amen.
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